Thank you all for advices. They are really helpful and serve as wise instructions for me.I needed that right now, so thanx again : )

Geez, I feel guilty ALL THE TIME. There must be something wrong with me. How can a normal healthy human being possibly feel guilty about EVERYTHING he/she has ever done? I mean everything really. How can a person possibly have inner peace with this mentality? Is this some kind of psychological disorder?

In my rage, I say messed up things to people sometimes. I tell them I am sorry about it later and take back what I said. My problem is that I say things that hit people real hard that they dont want to hear about themselves that I reveal to them, but I am always pretty damn accurate.
Its hard to take back some of the things. So I go and apologise and they throw it back in my face telling me that I always use the excuse that I have a bad temper and Its okay for me to say messed up things because I apologise for it later...............would they rather I didn't apologise?..........That just pisses me off again and I say more messed up things...... fuckem '......they keep coming back for more.
I gain inner peace from it because I know I try to apologise, even though sometimes they deserved what happen anyway.

but, there is always a choice ~ maybe the thing you prefer isn't one of the choices and/or the whole situation isn't fully revealed, yet ~ but, there is always a choice

love all-ways,
mem